just like that..a sad shift in focus..

so yesterday
I was wondering where to start.
Overwhelmed with all to do,
not enough time..
way to many plans...

And then,
sadly,
one of our cats..
was hit by a car and killed.
and the focus shifted!
just like that!!
Nothing on my list got done,
as I comforted my children.
They were beautiful and compassionate
in their heart break.
My son stepped into his young mans role;
digging the grave,
hammering the little cross...
the girls brought flowers and painted rocks..
all cried.
Its very sad.

As their mom
I know that this is a slice of life!
It hurts and more hurt with follow.
As children
they cannot imagine much worse.

Its these moments
that leave me as a mom..
wondering..
how do you comfort them
and make it OK?

I did all I knew,
I listened,
I held them,
I allowed them space,
and I sat outside with my youngest
when she decided she was going to keep
a vigil
by the grave.

I do know that for that space of time,
nothing else
that needed to be done
was done!

and maybe theres the answer..
priorities
fall into place
when you recognise
the moments
that supersede
the plans and priorities
you thought you had..
priorities shift
and move like quick sand..
and sometimes they become
the moment
that can be ignored
but will forever leave regret
if its not taken and lived to its fullest.

The moment that lives forever in your heart..
as opposed to the moment that fades and dissapears
and merges into all the others.