so much has changed...

over these past few years
so much has happened.
so much has changed.
The heart ache became resilience!
The fear of the future
became hope for the present!
The wonder ifs
became yes I cans..

But, none of it has been easy!
Sometimes at the time
we are just doing what we must,
and it's in looking back
that we realize
that we were actually almost drowning!

I am so thankful to be where I am in my life!
I have learned that you never arrive!
That, what in this moment
seems perfect
can change in an instant!
Security is fleeting
and not to be counted on!
BUT, if we live our lives afraid
to let go
and cannot accept that this moment is GOLD;
we live in fear and defeat!

And so,
having learned that people are fallible,
and hearts are breakable,
Sadness is inevitable
and some hurts never mend.
I have also learned
God is faithful,
we are resilient
Hearts grow back together
and the scar tissue gets stronger over time.
I have learned that the moment is sweet.
the future is not ours to know...
but if we trust in where we are;
live the moment
without fear of what the future may hold-
the moment will carry us through
the storms.

So today I enjoy all the blessings
I have!
Today I live in the joy
of the life I have.
I am content alone in my home...
and as provider for my children.
I am excited about my place of work..
I am thrilled beyond measure
about my children's opportunity
to attend a private, christian school.
I am in love with my kids.
I find great joy in the furry and scaled animals
within my care.
I am relieved at the prospect of my parents
moving closer!

In all of this TODAY;
I am blessed!
I am joyful!
I am thankful!

Today I just AM!