Sticks and stones

We all know sticks and stones can hurt..
we also know that words can harm...
but what about;
disapointment,
disheartened hope,
broken promises,
deception,
misleading...
that does not just harm;
it changes a heart!

dating again...
or trying,
after 2 bumps in a row
has proved much harder
then expected!
I read so much into words,
I feel like I have heard them before,
I see danger in every sign,
and red flags are in everything!

I know that in time
I might trust more easily,
and I understand that my new
found caution
has been earned honestly;
one hurt at a time.

but, in this moment;
I regret the trust I gave..
because it seems to have cost me
the ability to trust again.

and yet I remember
thats its just for now..
always just for now..

should have been..instead....what is!

 

                                                       I just spent an amzing few days
                                                                        on vacation...
                                                  I was supposed to be doing something
                                                                             else..
                                                               but life threw me a curve!
                                                                         Instead..
                                                                          I did this!
                                                                and loved every minute....

 

Time with a friend..

giggles..

and dinners..

and kayaking through a perilous

ocean storm...

Time alone...

time to think...

and walk..

and reflect...

above all:

a few days to be reminded,

that we make our own memories..

we hold the power to create our

own experiences;

and sometimes what should have been

does not measure up

to what instead IS!