Sunday, March 11, 2012

What I want..and what I hope to be...

I wrote the "WHAT A GIRL WANTS" list July 2011
Tonight I wrote What a girl wants to be!
The more I heal
the more I see
not only what I am looking for-
but, what I am looking to be
in return!

What a girl wants..

...and What a girl wants to be!

So here is my list;

1) a man that shares my faith

2)a man that has kids or completely respects that I do, and understands all that entails.

3)a man with a stable and rewarding job

4)a man who makes me smile!
I will do my part to keep him laughing!

5)a man that is flexible
life happens!

6)a man that makes me feel valuable to him
He will never doubt his worth to me.

7)a man that does not see the need to drink excessively.

8)a man who watches his language around me.

9)a man that makes me feel safe
he will feel safe and confident in who we are together,
and who he can be with me!


10)a man who respects who I am, even if he does not share all my quirks
This goes both ways...

11)a man who will communicate in good times and bad
I will purpose to be open and not allow things to fester and build.

12)a man I am attracted to
and I will let him know this.

13)a man that makes me feel attractive

14)a man who knows who he is and is comfortable in his own skin.

15)a man who accepts and understands the demands in my life,
as I will understand the demands in his, and do my part to add
to the positive not the stress.


16)a man who embraces my love for my family.

17)a man who encourages my time with friends.
understanding the boundaries that keep the relationship first.

18)a man who has his own healthy hobbies

19)a man who smiles easily
I will always smile back!

20)a man who handles his stress appropriately.
I will find outlets for my stress that do not affect the
one I am with!

21)a man who is respectful to those around him.

22)a man who treats his mother kindly.

23)a man who understands and accepts the role he will have with my kids,
not as a father, but as a respected man in their lives.
I accept and understand the role I will play with his.

24)a man who likes being a man.

25)a man who likes, or accepts with kindness, animals.
at least most of them..:)

26)a man who wants a balanced partnership

27)a man who will allow me to talk things out when I feel hurt
I will listen when he is hurt as well!

28)a man who will not keep me guessing
and vice versa!

29)a man who will be faithful
I will be faithful ,loyal and true!

30)a man who will enhance my life emotionally,
and allow me to do the same for him.


The man I am looking for may not be all of these things,
but he will be more of them than he is not!
Some are deal breakers,
some are not..
but all help me to define
what I hope to have,
what I hope to be,
what...
I hope to find!

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

dating..or lack of it...

So I gave up on line dating..
it works...
for some!
It certainly
kept me busy...
dinners out; here and there!
but, ultimately..
the investment of time-
the lack of true
'connections'...
the exhausting process
of starting from scratch-
just did me in!

And so..
for the last several months
I have been dateless!
and some times
I miss the hope!
And always
I yearn for the possibility...
but mostly
I accept where I am.

Whenever I wonder..
if maybe,
I should actually look harder..
should get out more..
reconsider my options-
lower my expectations...
I remember
that settling for less
than is right for me,
is not an option!

and so..
I keep on
keeping on!
Living single..
enjoying life..
not waiting for the next stage-
just wondering
what might possibly
be waiting for me!

Monday, February 20, 2012

The new LOOK of alone time..

I still remember
the days
when my family was intact..
my days were filled
with kids,
and home,
and family..
and there were times that I longed
for some time alone!

I would imagine
all the things that I might do-
browsing in bookstores,
rambling slowly through cobbled streets,
wandering in and out of stores,
reading my book in the park..

NOW, I get to do those things!
I have more alone time than
I did then..
and yet now..
my non-alone time
is so intense..
so exhausting..
so solitary..
that when the alone time
comes..
it takes time
just to reach the place
of breathing!

Some how,
when you have no choice
but to do all those
things alone,
they do not seem quite
as alluring as they did
before.

And so
alone time looks different-
its still refreshing-
its still needed..
its no longer as unique
and sometimes
its unwelcome...
but, its mine
and it matters!