So much has happened
in my heart
these past 5 years,
yes. five!
seems huge..
seems long..
seems short..
IS significant.
one month from now,
I celebrate a milestone;
5 years since I ran.
I have learned so much.
I have learned that I can love,
and loose
and hurt
and cry,
I have learned
that I can survive
and work
and provide
and protect...
I have redefined
what love looks like..
I have come to a place
of knowing
that what I want
and what I need
might be different.
What I hope for
is someone who is my 'other half'...
no more. no less.
Life has taught me,
carried me..
sustained me..
and existed beside me.
And through it all..
I live.
I live with tears,
I live with laughter.
I live with grace..
and fears.
I live with strength
and sometimes weakness.
I strive for more,
accept what is;
I look to find the breath
within the moments.
I fail sometimes.
I start over.
I wish sometimes...
I dream sometimes..
I wonder sometimes..
but always I am.
Always I become.
Always I live.
No I am a single chap I understand a lot more what it is like living without, in my case, a spouse. Quite difficult to adjust and I miss her dreadfully as I try to say in my poem. I think one day at a time is the way. Hugs ~ Eddie
ReplyDeleteGood for you for finding the courage to leave and getting stronger because of it!
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