Not a state to fear...

I find it amazing...
even though I understand!

How many-
will make decisions
that will follow them always,
to avoid
learning to be OK
with just themselves!

I used to feel that
way too..
I used to dread being alone,
I used to fear that state..
deeply!
I no longer regret
choices I made as a result-
but, I do understand
how easy it is
to choose someone
over no-one.

and yet....
now..
Its hard to imagine!

This weekend..
I put up a fence in the back yard..
I took my children to
the fair...
I handled my finances,
housework,
yard work..
I took my children to church..
I bought them dinner,
I spent time with them;
and time with me..
and I did this all..
alone!

Not a state to fear...
a state to own
and overcome..
a state to thrive within..
and a state that brings you
to understand,
you will never be the same-
because you will never
again fear..
the very state
you are now in!!~

soul healthy=
priceless!

I release you..will you release me?

One of the hardest aspects
of ending
a relationship,
is letting go!

And even when we
have let go..
there is the process
of finding
peace in the end.
and the tomorrow..
and most of all,
the yesterday!

I am there..
this has been the longest
part of the journey.
I moved on,
I let go..
but I still struggled
with the peace
in the past!

I have found it...
in each place I have been..
relationships that lasted
ages..
and those that lasted months..
I have come to face
and acknowledge what was,
and understand
that each moment
is part of me today!

The places in my soul
that hurt,
are no longer angry!
The memories
that left me frustrated
at my bad judgment-
now leave me
overwhelmed at how
far I have come.
The situations
that caused me to doubt
myself,
now cause me to feel
confident in today.
and the heartaches
that made me wonder..
how? and why?
are now answered
with 'because of NOW'..
because of who I now can be!

I no longer need closure,
I no longer need validation,
I no longer need to reconcile
what was,
I have truly
forgiven, let go , moved on...
and reconciled the past!~

huge! REALLY!

I knew it.....

Life is strange..
the way,
what you think might be;
can only really
be proved
when it happens..

you think someone
is shady..
but how do you know
until they are,
you think someone
is willing to do anything
to win,
no matter who gets hurt..
but you will not find out until;
someone
gets
hurt...
you think someone
will be swayed
by the attention;
but until
they stray-
you shall not know.

you think...

so you make choices
to protect yourself,
but you cannot
know
if you were right,
until-
you realize:
YUP,
your gut feeling?
right on the money!
LOVE
that!