is it really complicated??

I was asked recently
why my blog is called what its called..
what do I mean
by 'complicated world'?..
To be honest I think that
speaks for itself..
but maybe not!
So here it goes:

I am a mother!
I have 3 children.
one is a teenager
and 2 are preteen girls..
we all share a bathroom :-)..
complicated?
a tad!

I am a single mother!
I want to set a good example
for my kids,
I want to keep them safe!
I want to avoid exposing
them to hurt!
complicated?
yup!

I am a woman!
I work full time!
I go to college half time!
I care for my home..
and kids..
and pets..!
I juggles several full time
responsibilities,
and try to do it with grace!
complicated?
you betcha!

I am a single woman.
I might want to date one day!
I might even want to spend
my life with someone.
I do not know what that looks like,
I have no idea
where to start!
I am content alone!
I might one day like company!
I enjoy my life!
I might, at some point, want to share it!
Complicated?
beyond description!

I find life full
and happy...
I am content and at peace!
I am also very busy,
and have many roles to fill.
I am helping to raise and mold
3 people..
I am working to better my education..
and I am striving to be the best
preschool teacher possible.
Trying to be a good person,
a stronger woman,
a better mom,
and an outstanding employee...
complicated??
yes, in moments!!
worth it??
always!!

Making Mothers day Matter....

Mothers day
is another holiday..
that can leave a single mom..
feeling,
well..
single!

however,
I have learned
over the last several years..
to plan my day
and spend it my way!

I shared the weekend
with my son,
who turned 14 on Saturday!
2 great reasons
to go away for the weekend.

My ex took the kids shopping
with a list from me..:)
(my money, my choices..lol)
and I took my son
to a store to pick out a Pandora charm
to add to my bracelet!
again- I paid, he picked;
and I saw his choice Sunday morning!

I took us to breakfast..
I got take out for dinner..
and admittedly
I cleaned a lot in the middle.
(home from a trip = laundry)
but, the weekend was spent with my kids..
and I did not feel sad,
or at a loss...
I did not wish someone
was there
to pamper me..
instead
I enjoyed what I have,
and what I can provide!
I enjoyed my kids..
even in the moments
when mopping floors
made me cranky!

Its just a day..
unless YOU make it something special..
and so I did..!

all wrapped up in 7 days...

What a week...
first,
I faced a slice of my past..
in a way
that while not fun,
left me sure
that the present
is better
because of letting go
of what was..
or was not!

Then,
I finished my second semester
back at college,
and earned my second A and first B..
grades good enough,
to get me off of an
'academic probation'
that was was in place
from 20 years ago!
I start my summer session
'in good standing'
next week..

Now,
I am away with my kids..
on a mini trip
that has been many months
in the making..
a hotel for a few nights
and Disney tomorrow,
to celebrate
my sons 14th birthday!
Life happens fast-
and I love the times
that I can slow it down
long enough
to watch it happen...
that is what this weekend
is all about!

Lots of good..
one week...
a lifetime of learning!