Thursday, March 24, 2011

acceptable? marketable? or just me...

I sometimes wonder;
about who I am
and what I stand for...

How did I get to where I am?
and am I comfortable
now that I am here?

What if I never find
the other half
of me?

The thing is..
I have come to GET me...
even if no one else does.

I am incredibly put together..
except when I am not!
I am disorganized....
when I am not being organized!
I work hard,
but I play hard too...
I love deeply...
and I live happily alone.

I am a woman...
many facets
of one person.
a prism...
I look different based
on the direction
you see me from...

You might find me cleaning,
or ignoring the house work..
I might be studying...
or pretending
that I do not have homework...
You might find me at a protest
or at the beach.

No matter
how I might be
in the moment...
I am real
and I am true
and I am content
and I am ME...

My kind of me...
not perfect..
lots to learn,
room to grow..

I am a mom..
I must be mature..
I put my kids first...
and I always will.

But, I dream of changing the world..
joining activists
in a life altering cause,
or going to Africa
to work with children...

I love children-
I love animals-
I love those who need my voice-
I love my family-
I honor my parents-
and I work hard to forgive
and show grace to
those who hurt me...

I am OK with who I am..
I don't kill spiders,
I want chickens...
and there is normally
a homeless cat in the front yard.

I get lost a lot...
and I forget details..
like ever seeing a certain movie...
or how the book I have read several times;
ends!-

I might drive you crazy,
but I will also make you laugh..
and if ever
you get to know me
and steal a piece of my heart-
I will love you like crazy...
and if you happen to be a cat,
you will always find
a meal..:)

Not sure
If I am 'marketable'...
but I am real..
quirky..
but real.
and its enough..
at my age
and stage in life..
its enough!

4 comments:

  1. Wow so nicely written, as always.

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  2. Deb, there is NO other half of you. You? Are wonderfully WHOLE all on your own!!!!

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