Friday, November 19, 2010

so that reminds me....

Now that I am not
as single as I was..
Its hard, in moments,
to remember
why I chose to be alone
for as long as I did!

And then I am
reminded!

I did not choose to be
alone
because I do not like
company!
I do!
In fact,
sharing time with another
is wonderful!

I chose to be alone
to not need that....
however!!

The 'other' in my life
is away for a little while!
And...
I have NOT fallen apart!
My life continues
as normal!
Some of this is by design!
We schedule our time
around our kids
so , often, see each other
in stolen moments...
Some of this
is because
I am just OK
alone...

Last night
I happened to be
in a new part of town..
saw a little restaurant
that looked good!
Went in
alone..
and ate!
No book,
no magazine..
nothing to distract
me
from the fact
that I was eating
without someone else
at the table
beside me!

And I remembered...

THIS is why
I did that!
I chose to be alone
so that I can easily
be by myself,
whether I choose to
or not!
I chose to be alone
to begin to overcome
my dependence
on another!

When I am with
someone
I am happy...
and content!
I am glad to share my life
and my heart!
But,
when I am
not with that person
I am OK too..

and for me-
that makes the years
of loneliness
worthwhile-
and the moments
spent
'not alone' now....
that much more
sweet!
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7 comments:

  1. mamahasspokenNovember 19, 2010 at 4:26 AM

    Yes, alone time can be a wonderful thing!

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  2. Not a soccer momNovember 19, 2010 at 9:20 AM

    Not sure if my last post posted- Just wanted to say. There is comfort to be found in aloneness. It took me a long time to be able to spend time alone, but now I relish it. You are absolutely right you needed to learn to exist on your own in order to feel fulfilled and secure when not alone. great words

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  3. BrittanyNovember 19, 2010 at 12:04 PM

    I am so happy that you found someone!!

    BUT

    I am even more happy that you learned to love yourself and learned to be alone! Thats a really hard thing to learn! I'm still working on it:) eek so happy for you!

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  4. SueannNovember 19, 2010 at 3:25 PM

    If one doesn't learn to appreciate ones' own company...who will? Well said
    Hugs
    SueAnn

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  5. Momma SunshineNovember 21, 2010 at 4:23 AM

    That's one of the things that I really appreciate about my relationship with CBG...the fact that I have learned (very well, I might add) how to be on my own. I think that's a good skill for anyone to have. :-) Good for you!!

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  6. secret agent womanNovember 22, 2010 at 4:20 PM

    Good to be reminded of that.

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  7. DanielleNovember 29, 2010 at 11:39 AM

    Good for you! You sound so healthy!

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