a real friday night..the cure for the humdrums??

I am still getting the hang of this
single-again mom thing!:)
and this working, single mom thing..
and this kids are preteens now thing..
and..
well..you get the picture!!

Sometimes all is smooth
and sometimes not so much..
but tonight I realized that
one aspect
that I have let go in the routine
is the basic 'Friday night veg out'!

Back in my old life..
when I was home all day with the kids
the weekend were my time to relax
with family!
I did this with no guilt!
and of course, while a stay at home moms life is busy
the house work tends to be part of the gig..
and often is done during the week!
now logistically it has to wait until the weekend..
so it seems I get a head start
and Friday nights are more of the same!
Well..no more!
Its Friday night!
I plan on putting the kids to bed on time:)
putting my feet up..
reading a good book...
or even watching something meaningless on TV!
I ordered us a pizza and will skip the stair stepper!!:)

I wonder if just letting myself
let it all go
will be the first step
in finding my footing again!
Because I was pretty steady on my feet,
but have defiantly hit some rocky ground!

So, we will start here...
Thank goodness its Friday, right??

some days you climb the wall..some days you hit it!

Seems this week I have hit it!
Just too tired to think!
and yet this is not a normal state of being for me..
I wonder why I am so burnt out??

I think that the summer coming to an end plays a part!
This is the second summer I have worked with my kids out of school.
This one was great however,
in that my kids got blessed by the hard work!
We had vacations and camps...
treats and fun...
the hard work so worth it!
BUT, as its drawing to an end..
I think the anticipation of evenings at home...
is starting to mount!

I look forward to the normal teaching schedule..
and the routine of daily life!
Maybe, I am just tired..it happens!:)
But, for whatever reason..
today..this week..
is a week in which cleaning the kitchen is an accomplishment
getting laundry done is cause for celebration
and the hot meals just icing on the cake!!:)

The great part...
each day is new...
each moment now history...
and relief is just around the corner!!

Keeping it all real...

Today was almost as bad as yesterday..
really...
driving to get the tire..
the engine made an awful noise!
Got to the garage just in time...

However, The garage was owned by an old family friend,
He gave me a price break!
When the car started having issues I was a few minutes away..
yesterday when the tire blew..
within minutes someone who knew me
passed by
and stopped to help..

These are just a few examples
there are many
moments when it all feels wrong
but if you look hard
you will see
that there is alot more right!

The small things that get you through
big things!
The small things are the real moments
the big things sometimes consume us..
and yet if we stop..
just for a second
and start looking at the details around the event..

How much worse could it have been?
How much harder?
How much did the details protect or prevent??
How blessed are we
even in the moment that it all falls apart?

I am taking the time to look at the details..
and appreciate the moments
that make the disaster
just inconvenient
instead of catastrophic..
sort of like smelling the roses..
instead I am looking for the roses in the middle of the thorns...