I seem to be having one at the moment..
as my blog conveys
I tend to live in a pretty happy world.
Life is HARD!
Life has HURT!
BUT, I am content with where I ended up
and probably more importantly,
who I ended up
through all this!
But, once in a while...
I still hurt!
There are several things hurting my heart.
all will probably require different posts!
The first is a little bit of loneliness.
The second is a friendship
I lost a while ago
that is at the surface right now;
In addition my oldest
is at camp for 8 days
and I miss him.
and the last...
My ex husband is having a family reunion
Every 2 years for many , many years
this was a part of our summer!
My kids went this year.
I still keep in touch with several
of my now 'out' laws...
and I guess the reality
of what divorce is,
is hitting me a bit!
Its a divorce from more then one person.
It cuts you off from people and events
that have been part of your life!
This year would be the year
I would be comfortable being there..
and the first family event
he did not invite me too!
I get this,
his relationship is serious
and as much as we all get along;
I can see where that might not be comfortable
for her..or even him!
BUT, its just hit this tiny little nerve
that is still open and raw in my heart!
as all things this shall pass!
as all hurts it will go away!
and as all trials,
2 years from now
this event will not hurt as much
as it does this year!
The power of healing..
each steps takes you one step away from the rawness
and one step closer to being whole!