Sunday, June 13, 2010

redirected memories

The kids and I spent the first day
of summer...
at the beach!
We really enjoyed ourselves!

As I watched them swim,
of course,I thought of when they were small!
of course, I remembered,
Years of family vacations...

I walked out in the water,
and remembered that their dad
used to be the only one
who could coax me into the waves....

And a funny thing happened!
It does not hurt,
nor make me angry!
I have not rewritten history,
in fact I remember well..
the disconnect.
I remember well
my need for his attention
a need that often went unfulfilled.
But, that no longer matters!

Now, I can remember
watching the kids playing in the water
with their dad
and I smile!
Now I can remember
sitting as a family in the sand
and I smile!
Now I have accepted
that I am where I am meant to be...
And I Smile!

The circle of life..
you come through the pain
and the hurt!
and the memories that once made you angry,
or felt like a betrayal..
now are just a part of your heart history!
and like all history
it carries its own baggage!
But, in time all that matters
in the part of the history
that you choose to carry within you!

The part that can no longer hurt you..
the part that is a part of who you are,
and the part that makes you better
for having lived it!
and no person or circumstance
can take that away!


  1. Sounds like a beautiful day all around

  2. Sounds like you all had a fabulous time. Glad that you can look back and smile :0)

  3. It is a wonderful thing to find oneself at peace with the moment and with life!
    What a wonderful photo of all of you at the beach!!

  4. Once you let go of the anger, it just seems to float and be ok! I get this.

  5. No one can take the good memories away from you and I am so pleased that you are finding an inner peace.
    Maggie X

    Nuts in May

  6. Isn't it great when you can revel in the joy and beauty of a moment, rather than wallow in the sadness of what was lost. Good for you! The beach sounds great right now...