Thursday, June 24, 2010

The smell of freedom...

I wonder if I will ever tire
of the feeling..
or forget...!

recently I read a quote that intrigued me;
"A familiar captivity is frequently more desirable
than an unfamiliar freedom."
C.S.Lewis


I get that!
I remember when the 'what if'
seemed less desirable
then the 'what is'.

BUT, now that I know
what it is to live 'free'..
to not walk on eggshells,
or shake with anxiety....
to not worry and wonder
and stress
and fear....

NOW-
I do not think
ever
I could go to captivity again!
no matter how comfortable
it might seem to be!

I walked out my front door tonight-
heading to pick up my kids
at a local event!
still in running clothes,
little makeup
and hair in a pony tail...
JUST me!

I took a deep breath!
and I STILL I feel it!
still I smell it!
still I sink in its embrace...
I am free!
and it still feels amazing.

9 comments:

  1. Freedom so sweet. I have crunched those eggshells so loudly too...now they are all gone...yes..never again :)

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  2. May you always feel amazing my friend. Life is so good.......:-) Hugs

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  3. Glad that you know what it is like to be your own person without the trappings of what someone else tells you to be.

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  4. What an awesome feeling! Hang on to it...relish it!!!
    Hugs
    SueAnn

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  5. What a truly beautiful family you have! You are blessed! Your posts are wonderfully written. Most women would buckle under the stress and burdens that these freedoms can bring...it is so refreshing to see your take on things! LOVE your blog!

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  6. Following you back, have a great weekend!

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  7. Oh girl!!!! that how I am leaving today as well!!!! Feels wonderfull!!!!!!! Godd for you and all of us! (((((HUGHS))))

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  8. Great post - good for you!

    Thanks so much for joining us for Friendly Friday, have a great weekend!

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  9. You know, freedome really is a great thing, and so is being "single". I have more time than I ever did. I don't have a husband coming home yelling at me and my daughter. I'm not longer forced to watch TV at night with my husband. I can do something productive or watch a movie of MY CHOICE!!! I don't have to worry about what HE likes for dinner. It's just me and Hannah, and really, I like it that way. Oh, and I now have PETS!!!!!!!! That's got to be the best part of all!!!!!!!!!!!! I even have a CAT, which I never thought I would have again. He hates cats. :) So, freedom is good. You can be yourself. It's time to find ourselves in this big scary world.

    I can't wait to see you next week!!!!

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