Friday, August 5, 2011

walking Away

So..
I have been dating
for a short while!
It has been a process...
and one I learned lessons from!

But, it has also been hard-
in moments too hard!

To much baggage
between us maybe?

Or just not a fit?

or just not the right timing?

who knows!

I know that I was not feeling
as I should..
I felt on edge
and in moments 'unseen'..
my expectations-
maybe too high?
but, maybe not high enough.

What I know is that
I want it to feel different..
I want to feel more valued
even in the beginning!

And so I walked away..
I redefined the perimeters...
and my own guidelines..
I left the ending
open ended..
but the expectations are clear!

I move on..
I do what I should have done
all along..
I see other people-
I date without the preset notions..
and I see what I want
and who I am meant to be with!!

above all,
I take back myself..
my power
and strength..
and I live this aspect of my life-
on the terms that count:
mine!

13 comments:

  1. you seem so strong! good for you.

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  2. rachel..no, not so strong! It was hard...I should have done it sooner!!However, its progress..there was a time I would not have done it at all..I would have stuck through until someone else made the choice..I would give chance after chance...so its progress!!

    The bipolar diva- I feel the same about you!:)

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  3. Well said! Be true to yourself...always! And be honest...with yourself and others!!
    Hugs
    SueAnn

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  4. It is not easy, but your gut feelings are usually right. Especially in the beginning, you should not feel uneasy.
    Love the new colors on the blog

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  5. You are my very own teacher. Two steps in front of me - giving me insight into what is to come.

    I so hope that Mr Right is right around the corner.

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  6. Do you know? I don't think I'd want to be bothered.
    It all seems too much trouble and effort and I'd enjoy my freedom while I could! I wouldn't want to answer to anybody. Theres a lot to be said for doing what YOU want!
    Maggie X

    Nuts in May

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  7. Sue Ann- working on know what my 'truth' is..

    not a soccer mom- I agree..it should be good in the begging and get better..not bad- and get worse!

    Spencer Park- We can teach each other..walking the same road!

    Maggie May- sometimes I feel that...and other times I know that I want to share my life with someone..*sigh*

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  8. Dating is tough...I've entered that world recently, myself, and it's been frustrating. It's hard to know what to trust. But, sometimes, it just "feels" right, or it feels wrong, and usually our guts know best. In fact, mine is telling me I shouldn't have had all those potato chips earlier ;)

    All the best as you move on and meet others!

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  9. Mr Witherspoon- I would definitely listen to the chips..;-)..if only it were always so clear, huh??

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  10. Indeed, if only...often it's as clear as mud. It never seems to work like it does in the movies. Darn it :) But, if anything, it is a learning experience, and I have to think that along the way we slowly figure out what we want, what we need, and what we deserve, and all that will only help us trust our instincts better and recognize when that special someone does enter our lives, and believing that they will.

    Or, at least that's what I tell myself to avoid giving up and just joining the priesthood ;) Heh.

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