I feel so torn about tomorrow..
on the one hand..
my father is the greatest man I know!
He has always been my protector,
My greatest fan!
Fathers day is a day
I appreciate the blessing I have in him.
Then the is the father of my children...
who while he loves them
and this day is his with them...
he hurt me!
And it is bittersweet to spend a day alone..
knowing that he is celebrating
with the 'new' family unit
he has constructed!
It is bittersweet to see family's and know
that not that long ago
Fathers day was a day
I celebrated not just the father of my children
but my husband,
and no matter how much time passes
or how healed the wounds become
of all that has changed...
and all that has come to pass!!
I have my heavenly father,
who loves me
who knows me
who accepts me
and who catches me when I fall...
So when it all comes down to it
the hope outweighs the hurt!