I am in a new phase,
a few years back when I found myself
single the first time..
I was certainly single and looking!
There were many reasons,
I still believed in love,
I still desired marraige,
and I longed for the validation and security
a relationship would bring.
I noticed a wedding ring..or not.
I dressed aware that there was NO wedding ring
on my finger...
I was open..
and I found..
And now I am single again..
but not looking!
I know that I am not ready!
I know that I do not trust,
nor even completely believe in forever..
I know that I don't desire the complications
that a relationship would bring.
And its interesting how for me
this has been such a growing experience,
for the first time since I was 17 years old..
I dress to please only me!
I choose to dress up
or dress down
based not on the company I am keeping
or who I might see
but instead my whim...
I believe that in this time
I am, as a side affect, learning more about myself
and becoming comfortable in my own skin..
because I am looking
only for that!