Saturday, February 21, 2009

Last look back...journal entries cont

January 21st 2007

So much to say...
The kids started school this week.
All I ever knew is no more.
I was a devoted wife....no more
I was a homeschooling mom....no more.
And soon the last aspect of my identity; stay at home mom...
will instead be 'working mom'.
It's all changed.
Sometime's its OK. I know the kids will be OK. And that I will be OK.
And sometimes I hurt beyond measure and miss my place in this world.

I miss knowing where my footsteps would fall-
Where I belonged,
Who I was!

I feel adrift.
I am not sure who I am any more.
I am in limbo - floating,
waiting for a wave
to wash me ashore and set me at the foot of my future!

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Present;

I found my place in the world...
I found my identity
I found that where I am, surpasses where I have been.
I took a step towards the future...
I am not just OK...
I am excited about whats to come...........

3 comments:

  1. nice checklist...enjoy the wine!

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  2. Good for you! It's fun to look back and see how far we've come.

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  3. This is so good to read!! I have felt the same things myself...and these days, I mostly feel pretty good about things like you, but it is still nice to see a reminder. :)

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