It still amazes
me
that I am at a place in my life
that what I do
impacts my children's very well being
and welfare
in every way there is.
For so many years,
I trusted another to provide
while I got to be a mom.
Now I am a mom!
Now I provide!
and sometimes one supersedes the other,
and sometimes they balance each other..
but, both are now vital roles.
And either role being threatened
would leave me
equally stressed and on edge.
A single moms life.
Often knowing
its on you!
Often feeling
your choices are limited
to the needs of your children!
Often feeling the pressure
of wanting to be it all,
and the fear that some how you
won't be.
In a volatile economic climate
we are all feeling it..
BUT, I will admit
that it seems to take on
a whole other side
when you are in it..
well, as just you!
Good, bad, happy ,sad..
This burden,
This weight,
This responsibility
is never far from a single moms heart..
even when she smiles
beneath the smile
lies the knowledge
that the turn life took,
requires strength her smile will never fully convey!
I remember when i first got divorced, I was terrified to take it all on alone. I would have nightmares about men in the shadows chasing my kids and I. It does get easier.
ReplyDeleteDont try to be super mom. Kids are strong and so are you
While the weight is there, so is the joy and the courage. You're doing a fantastic job.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right. It takes a great deal of strength and courage to put one foot in front of the other. I remember this journey well. Sometimes I couldn't breathe. And the stress level can really bear down on you. Prayer made all the difference for me. That and the love I had for my child. But I know how hard it is and I salute you. You are brave and courageous and you love your children. You believe in prayer. You have all the tools that you will need to journey on.
ReplyDeleteHugging you
SueAnn
But you handle it beautifully!
ReplyDeleteYou will look back on it all and marvel at your strength.
ReplyDeleteYou are strong and you manage very well.
MaggieX
Nuts in May
I hear what you're saying. I'm a single dad with halftime custody, and I'm feeling the economic pinch big time. I try to remember that besides being a parent, I'm just a person. People can only do so much. My kids know I have their best intentions at heart, but I'm not superman. And that fosters a compassionate spirit for all of us in the house, and removes some of the pressue. We're all in this together.
ReplyDeleteIt is scary and burdensome to be the sole provider in a household. But somehow, we just seem to grit our teeth and do it.
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ReplyDeleteJennette
http://www.smartandtrendymoms.com/
Well stated.
ReplyDeleteNow following from FF. Have a wonderful weekend :)
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Good Afternoon! Happy FF!
ReplyDeleteHave a Great Weekend!
Bridgette Groschen
Groschen Goblins
Hey! You have a wonderful little family! I'm a new follower from Friday Follow! Come and visit me please
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You are so right on with this post. I never would have imagined that I would be responsible for two other human beings. It's a scary thought.
ReplyDeleteThanks for joining the Friday Follow celebration. I am a follower.
Lynn
http://www.middayescapades.com
Debbie,
ReplyDeleteYou hang in there my blogging buddy. You are a terrific Mom. Does your ex help you out sufficiently? I don't mean to pry but I do worry about you.
Happy Friday Follow.
ReplyDeleteI am a new follower. Hope you can stop by and follow me too. :)
~Cindi
http://littleyayasandblessed.blogspot.com/
PS your family is absolutely gorgeous.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly whaT you mean! ((((HUGHS)))
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