old habits...new hobbies

so...
I toyed with the idea of on line dating
again.
This is a bit crazy for me
as I did not go so well the first time around.
BUT, I feel 'ready' to move on,
and decided I was not going to meet anyone
while sitting on my couch on a Friday night.
UNLESS it was online, that is.

it was a failed experiment!

:) The idea lasted about a week
and EVERY single communication
was deleted...
so, I am either NOT cut out for this form of dating,
or not ready..
or both!

BUT, instead
I have been inspired to continue
the journey of finding me.
I have a new friend..
she is a kindred spirit..
she has more bizarre animals then I do:)..
she works full time
and has kids..
she has a plateFUL.
and yet she finds time for things I desire...
she has a green house,
she has chickens,
she grows spouts,
and juices.
She is 'me' in my heart and mind!:)
and being with her reminded me
that yes, life is a bit different..
and certainly I have a bit more to do..
but I can still follow my heart in areas
that matter!!

And so, instead of dating
I pick GARDENING!:)
I am very excited about my new project...
and more then the project
I am excited about finding the 'me'
that belonged in my old life.
Redefining the 'me'
who thought she was kicked out when work
moved in..

There should be balance..
there should be boundaries..
but there should not be limitations!

I feel like some of those 'walls'
have been removed.
I have been given the 'freedom'
to be as earthy as I want,
no matter what my life's duties entail..

It was a good day..:)
an inspiring day...