I am writing this on Monday night
but I won't be posting it for a few days...
My life has been tumbled around
I had a job I loved.
Doing something I was good at..
with co-workers I liked..
and children I adored!
Today I found out
that I no longer have a job!
The school I work at
has taken a blow
due to the economy we are all trying to survive in..
and is closing!
I am heart broken.
I know it will be OK!
I have faith that God has a plan!
I am not yet in a place of panic,
I am just in a place of sadness.
I am sad about loosing a part of my life..
I liked going to work with people I liked.
I liked being part of a small family.
I liked the parents of my little ones..
and I loved my little ones.
I had put some time into my job
and had shown my heart and dedication.
I was not just starting...
and now I shall be again.
That makes me sad.
I am sad about the feeling of loss..
I am sad about the loss of what I knew..
I am sad about this night
and being alone to hurt and cry!
I know this sadness will pass.
I also know I have overcome alot..
18 months ago,
I was fleeing my hell
without any sort of back up plan or education.
I was coming back to estranged friends,
and far a way family.
I was distant from the children's father,
I had no place to live
and did not know where I would go.
NOW I have some education.
I have many friends..
and the continued support of family.
The children's father and I
We have a place to live.
I am not alone.
This is a bump...
in a road that has had many hills
But, it is a bump I would have prefered to live without!
it is a journey I now embark on..
as a single, unemployed mom..
that I would have rather not lived
my own version of...!
It has shaken up my comfort,
and re-reminded me
that nothing is for sure.
It has also motivated me.
College cannot wait any longer...
Time to quit being comfortable
and start moving forward...
Good shall come,
it always does.
But before the good comes the tears..
so for now,
I shed tears..
and soon I shall see the good
that I believe in my core;
is yet to come!