the most frustating part of being 'just me'
is when something BIG needs doing
and I am not sure how to tackle it!
Sometimes I wait,
Sometimes I try anyway..
and Sometimes I find myself in over my head,
but giving up is not an option!
I had that moment today...
I decided on a whim
it was time to move the carpet
OFF the back porch!
its a large porch
and the carpet was glued down.
It had been here since we moved in
and it was dirty...
So..I decided I would pull it up.
I moved the furniture as I went..
the porch has corners and odd shapes,
and I rolled as best I could
moving at angles..
and then I reached the end.
I now needed to get this LARGE bulky,heavy carpet
off the porch!
My strength was GONE!
I called my kids
and they did their best!
they really did!
BUT it required me lifting this thing
that weighs much more then me
UP while they pulled it out the door!
My muscles were shaking,
sweat was pouring..
but giving up could not happen.
In that moment it is not about the carpet,
it is about the fact that saying I can't
is admitting something bigger then me.
I wish I did not have to lift heavy things..
and I wish I did not have to move carpets..
and climb ladders!
BUT, I am learning
that the more I know how to do,
the less I have to wait for help for,
the more empowered and less helpless I feel!
Its not always about what you WANT to do..
its often about what you CAN!