oops..I did not see that coming....

it seems that while working as parents together..
whenever possible
is really best for the kids..
it can leave unexpected bruises on the heart!

I do not wonder if we should be together now.
In fact I understand deeply why we should not.
I care..but I am no longer hurt or sad..
and even seeing him with his love
causes no different feelings,
then seeing someone else I once knew well.
I can truly say acceptance has come..
closure has been found..
and true letting go has happened.

So why the bruise?
I don't wonder IF we should be together NOW
but being together as a team..
and doing it well..
made me wonder, for just a moment,
how we might have been THEN!
it was a glimpse at who we are now
in a situation we would have faced then.

It made me sadder then expected!
not regretful, not unsure, just aware..
that parts of us still work..
and yet I know..
that there are more parts of us that don't!
and we are where we should be.
So I take the bruise,
knowing there are more to come...
and I accept the moment for what it is,
a look back at what was;
an understanding of what could have been;
and then the realization that a moment does not compensate for a lifetime..
its just that, a moment!
one I did not see coming..
and one that passed before I realized it was gone!

and the journey continues..
one step at a time!