being home sick in bed..
I have lots of TV viewing time!
Last night I watched an interview
with the wife of the governor of South Carolina!
He cheated with a woman in Argentina,
and she shared her heart break!
She said something that STRUCK me!
On their wedding day,
her husband had refused to say the part
about promising to be faithful.
They had written it out of his vows.
she talked about it bothering her..
and yet they talked through it!
We ALWAYS know!
there is always a moment
when we are given the truth
and we choose to face it
or 'talk through it'.
My first marriage
two moments come to mind!
We met at 17!
My first love...
I was head over heals....
I would spend my day ignoring school work
and writing love notes!
On day my LOVE wrote a note to me!
I will never forget the moment!
I was reading it
as we were together,
he was outside of the car..
here was that he wrote
"it is so nice to have someone who loves me as much as I love them..
maybe even more!"
This was 20 years ago..
and I STILL remember my heart beat quickening..
my palms sweating..
my stomach knotting! UH-OH!
he thinks I love him more,
that can't be good!
I know we 'talked it out'
and I heard what I needed to hear!
BUT I knew in that moment!
He was giving me his truth..
I pretended it was something else...
Then a year later on our honeymoon.
I had hearts coming out of my ears!
I had married the Only person I had ever loved..
I could not be happier!
as we talked and cuddled he said;
" I want you to know you will always have my heart!
Even if I ever cheated..thats just s*x..thats not my heart!
please know that!"
hearing the heart part because I needed to!
focusing on that;
even as the lump in my throat,
and the knot in my stomach..
and the sweat on my palms spoke to a different truth!
a truth of a man not sure!
a truth of a man who was not able to commit to me..
a truth of a man who wanted to love me the way I needed,
but was sharing that he could not!
Those were the moments I knew!
the moments I held truth in my hand..
and instead spoke lies to my heart!
Because I could not deal!!
Oh..to teach my daughters;
that truth faced now hurts so much less the truth faced later...
and my son;
that truth owned now will hurt so much less the truth owned later...
what moments are we ignoring for the moments that are easier to take?