simple, sweet, satisfied!

So life is back to normal!
The kids are home,
from vacation with their dad.
They had a great time!
I used the time
to teach swim lessons,
to clean house,
shop for school,
organize,
and hang out with friends!

BUT, nothing beats having them home!
Hearing their nighttime noises
as they settle for bed.
Hearing their stories about the week..
their grumbling at each other...
their laughter.

My home is complete when they are here.
and THIS part, the seperation,
is the hardest part
of a broken home.
My home is incomplete
while they spend time with their dad.
His home might feel the same
when they are with me.
for every moment shared;
another is thinking
and wondering
and waiting
to have the moments back again!

This was not what I pictured
'growing up' would be!
This was not what I hoped for motherhood!
I never envisioned saying goodbye
to my children
several times a month..
or anticipating, this year,
Christmas morning alone!

IT is what it is..
it is what you make it!
We have made this the best it can be...
within what is!

BUT, this...
this is not what I wish it was!
and sharing my children
takes a toll on my heart
every time they leave...
and makes the completeness I feel
that much more sweet,
every time they come home....