Friday, August 6, 2010

simple, sweet, satisfied!

So life is back to normal!
The kids are home,
from vacation with their dad.
They had a great time!
I used the time
to teach swim lessons,
to clean house,
shop for school,
organize,
and hang out with friends!

BUT, nothing beats having them home!
Hearing their nighttime noises
as they settle for bed.
Hearing their stories about the week..
their grumbling at each other...
their laughter.

My home is complete when they are here.
and THIS part, the seperation,
is the hardest part
of a broken home.
My home is incomplete
while they spend time with their dad.
His home might feel the same
when they are with me.
for every moment shared;
another is thinking
and wondering
and waiting
to have the moments back again!

This was not what I pictured
'growing up' would be!
This was not what I hoped for motherhood!
I never envisioned saying goodbye
to my children
several times a month..
or anticipating, this year,
Christmas morning alone!

IT is what it is..
it is what you make it!
We have made this the best it can be...
within what is!

BUT, this...
this is not what I wish it was!
and sharing my children
takes a toll on my heart
every time they leave...
and makes the completeness I feel
that much more sweet,
every time they come home....

7 comments:

  1. I hear ya...that's exactly how i felt the first few years after my divorce from my children's father. I used to say, "I did not have kids to be apart from them." But time does help, and as they get older, it gets easier.
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  2. Very well said...thanks for sharing!
    I am a new follower from Friday Follow, so glad to have found your blog and I look forward to reading more. Have a wonderful weekend!

    Eloise
    Mommy2TwoGirls
    http://mommy2twogirls.blogspot.com/

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  3. I am so glad I found your blog, you are an inspiration. I am now following through FF, just late :)
    http://flipoutmama.blogspot.com/

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  4. This is definitely the down side of a split home but I am pleased that you really appreciate them all the more when they come back to you.
    I suppose it is true that one person's gain is another person's loss. Like my granddaughters' Japanese grandparents. They miss them terribly but now I have them. Before they lived in Japan & I missed out on their early years but their other grandparents had that pleasure.
    Maggie X

    Nuts in May

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  5. I know this arrangement can be hard on everyone, you, your ex and even the children....but I too believe over time they will adjust and become okay with it, the adults are not so lucky, it takes a while....:-) Hugs

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    Have a Great Day!

    Kari

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  7. Happy First Day of School to you!!!

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