2 nights ago
my car was broken into!
The back window was shattered,
some items were stolen.
the alarm alerted me and I ran out...
Took me a few minutes to know what had happened..
it was the middle of the night after all!
The next day,
we found a pair of eye glasses
in the back yard..
all of this happened outside my home!
Yes, right outside,
but outside none the less!
now I feel nervous inside my house
a feeling I am not used to!
when I first lived alone
I slept facing the door for months!
BUT, then it was not a stranger
that I expected to see!
Now, all these months and months later,
I find myself checking the locks
and rechecking the locks..
checking and rechecking the alarm..
my heart is beating..
I feel the quickening of my pulse..
because I am alone!
I am always alone!
I live alone!
They stole some items...
they broke a window...
but they invaded my safety!
Something I fight for..
something I need!
I know this feeling will pass..
and I know I will be OK!
Adjusting to this side of 'single hood'
is just what it is..
there is no upside to this part!
other then, I guess..
the part where you overcome..
and find your safety once again,
in spite of your circumstances...
I am just going to go
check the locks again..