pushed..pulled...

sometimes it seems
that many people
seem to feel
they know..
whats best for me!

Move on they say
get out
take a chance...
live a little...
or
don't let life pass you by!

And yet..
2 major life changes
2 lost loves
2 disappointments
2 dreams disintegrating into ashes
1 severed heart
broken twice...
in the space of 3 years..
seems more then just,
a 'let it go' event!

Do I fear?
of course!
But, what I know
sf that as of now...
I do not want to move on
in the way others wish!
I do not need to move on
in the way others hope!

I am not stagnating in my life!
I am thriving
and living
and laughing!
I am so content!

and here is what I understand..

I have MOVED on!
Life is NOT passing me by!
I AM living a little..
I have TAKEN a chance!

Its in the moments I smile
when I would rather cry!
Its in the days I work
when I would rather curl up in bed!
Its in the situations when I parent
when ignoring would be easier!

Its in the times I laugh
because its funny!
Its in the days
there is no where else I want to be instead!
Its in the knowledge
my life is what it should be!
Its in the peace
that this is hard but I am doing it!
Its in the contentment
of knowing I am not alone!

Moving on is in the moments..
not the circumstances!
Moving on is in the strength..
not a person to share the load!
Moving on is in the choices..
not the regrets!
Moving on happens...
with every step forward a broken life takes!