Monday, April 12, 2010
bitter sweet..mostly sweet
I took my kids to the local fair yesterday...
I live in a small town.
The fair is the thing to do...
we set our calenders by it...
and I have been going to this same fair
since I was 13 years old.
At 17 years old
I went for the first time;
with the boy who would one day
be the man
I gave my heart too.
We moved away after we got married..
we returned when our son
was 18 months old.
I still see those pictures in my mind..
we of course, took him to the fair..
and then every year since..
a few years later it was with two children,
we met family,
we met friends....
The fair was a high light in the year..
but more importantly
it was a night of family fun,
and throwing balls to win goldfish...
My mind has held every memory,
but now that's all they are...memories.
The children have gotten older..
the marriage is over...
family has moved away..
and friends have drifted apart!!
it should have been all bitter...
this visit to the patch of land
that held my heart prints..
instead it was a mix.
The sweet was that it was my 'family'..
the four of us..
and the kids had fun..
and I could contentedly watch them ride the rides..
I thought a lot,
but my heart stayed
just a moment on the sad thoughts;
and skipped on to the new experience.
these children who are now enjoying the fair..
at close to the age I was when I came the first time.
They saw friends from school,
they rode fast rides,
they ate a candy apple
and one got sick!
the circle of life...
and so the new phase begins,
and with a little sadness I say good bye to what was,
and with a lot of peace I say hello
to what shall from this point on be!