What I now know..until I learn more..

I have learned
that when you think
you are whole
you will find new breaks.

I have learned
that when it seems
weakness is all that's left
you will find new strength!

I have learned
that grief
ebbs and flows..
some times you are well
some times you are not
but each time you are further
then before.

I have learned
that there is wisdom
in not rushing the healing,
because new moments
of hurt
will catch you unaware.

I have learned
that when you come through
the lesson
you are something new
and it is good..
better!

I have learned
that we all have individual ways to cope.
I thought I healed as I ran,
I found I heal when I stop running
and walk,
and am the end of me..
because that is when I am finally still,
inside and out.

I have learned
that there are different aspects
of overcoming a divorce.
there is the grief over the loss of the love..
then comes the grief over the loss of the life
you knew..

At some point comes the reality of facing it alone;
and the knowledge that this fact can empower you
and completely devastate you..
depending on the moment!

I have learned many lessons..
with many still to learn.
Each lesson I carry with me,
and each day I am not sure which side of the lesson
I will be on.

Above all I have learned
That life is hard!
That life is good!
That being alone is relative!
That God is there!
And I am OK!..